| dejando el 08 |
[Dec. 31st, 2008|11:40 pm] |
another year added to the memories file..
gosh time flies..to think in 2 more yrs my dl exp lol..that means its been 7 yrs since ive graduated from high school and what have i done w my life?? gosh nothing really..well ive met new ppl.. ive learned new things .. i have love in my life.. my fam is well..all in all. it hasnt been bad .. at all! but myself has not done much.. lets not get in that sub right now
2008 will be in mah memories..
thank you for the many things ive learned .. for the mistakes that so far ive fixed..and well the ones i havent give me time.. 2009 will help me...
im grateful for everything ! even my weight gain! lol yes.. i knw i always complain but you knw what it makes me appreciate many things.. and even though i dont point them out. they are there..
all in all
im grateful to have wonderful friends that are always there for me.. thru thick n thin and i knw that now that we are older it is different we have grown but i knw that if anything they are there like i am for them
.. im grateful to have my parents and my brother w me.. i love them to death.. i havent been the best daughter or sister per say.. but i really do love them.. and i cherish them very much.. even if it does not show and i knw i complain but you knw what.. if i didnt then it would not be normal.. i thank the lord for letting me share this year w them..
im very grateful to have my kike .. he is my world.. i love him so much .. he has taught me so many things.. and i knw i have tendency to get mad or not want to face reality but honestly .. i like that he does that.. bc i knw he cares and he cares for me.. he has opened my eyes and made me acknowledge so many things.. im happy to have him there by my side even if he is not here in body .. he is always here in soul.. im looking forward to what 2009 brings to us :)
to all happy 2009 may u have many blessings!!!!
besos
jekz |
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| amore |
[Oct. 5th, 2008|01:12 pm] |
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| |  happy | ] |
ANXIOUS! EXCITED!
3 MONTHS FEEL FOREVER!
FINALLY BACK IN TOWN.. EXCITED...
ENJOY.. LOVE!!! YES...
SMILES.. INFINITE!
YES.. NEXT WEEK..
THE TOUCH.. THE SCENT.. THE FEEL..
TOGETHER AGAIN..
HAPPINESS :) |
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| hate you!!!! |
[Jun. 27th, 2008|02:58 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lady Blue.. Bunbury | ] |
fuck you
u knw i knw i left and yeah u were alone.. but im back tried to make it work.. i guess didnt happen cuz once i was here u left .. like nothing.. which in the end i respect.. y? u ask y? cuz u were making a future..
and now .. all i see is a complicated kid that doesnt knw if the right way is the north or not!
i fucking hate you.. but you knw why? cuz i fuckin love you!!!!
i dunno y i feel like this.. maybe cuz i want you here and yet ur fuckin far!
but u knw what in the end its ok cuz i knw that was ur decision.. and im going to respect that
i dunno what bunch of mumbo jumbo im writing.. but all i can say is..
FUCK YOU FOR LEAVING!
wish you were here :(
hate listening to bunbury.. and you knw why...
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH... FUCKING CRYING INSIDE.. BUT MAH ASS IS SUPPORTIVE.. AND WANTS THE BEST FOR YOU
have a great life where ever you are...
oh and p fucking s
thank you for the wonderful memories i have.. and i cherish and repeat constantly w everyone bc u have this special place in mah heart
ciao... the end |
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| woow forever but not forgotten |
[Jun. 19th, 2007|01:28 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Cuevita | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | :P | ] |
| [ | music |
| | kikes tv :P | ] |
havent been here since the begg of the year.. but im here...
catchin up.. oh alot.. but just a lil update..
ive had plenty of downers but when it comes to counting ups n downers,
ups surpass the downers w flying colors...
im very much in love and yes w mr Urban 01.. its been already 18 months and still nuts bout him.. who would of thought that this crazy myspace fling would be what it is right now... im extremely happy.. I LOVE MAH LOSER!!
ive gotten a new job but i didnt quit mah old one.. yeah i knw.. its kinda
too much but hey im young i can handle it..
tryin to start skoo in aug.. i want to commit to this.. i need to have a future...
started photography in jan. been gettin a lil better at it... still have alot to learn.. but im takin it step by step.. want to go to college for this :D
traveled 4x already.. one comin from guate.. one to orlando.. one to los angeles.. and one to san francisco.. yep ive been south east west and soon north..
i miss one of mah brujitas.. but she is doing good... going to skoo and being in love..
mah other brujita is doing good too.. shes got a.d.d. like me hehe i think thats y we get along so well hehehe.. i missed her this month (sorry for ur loss luv)..
everything is ok.. basically same sh*t bills work and well thats it :P
so im here today.. ill be bak soon.. like i said.. not forgotten.. |
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| today was a great day |
[Feb. 16th, 2007|02:59 am] |
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| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | high.. da blunt.. james blunt ;) | ] |
yeeey mah first day at work.. i fixed a deal w mah financial aid so yeeey i get to go to college.. i worked all day.. i dunno i felt great today... im soo happy heheheh... dunno y soo much joy but i have it.. like im starting over and its great :D yeeey :D |
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| last day came... |
[Feb. 7th, 2007|04:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | and sad as well | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nature :P | ] |
as mah title says.. last day came... to be honest it hadnt hit me till right at this instant.. it hasnt hit hard but im a lil bloo.. but like we both said n everyone around says its for our best.. for our future.. and im happy because i get to see him in a month so its not bad.. but i will miss sleepin next to him.. feelin his warmth.. his sweet arms around me.. every lil detail.. doesnt matter if its nasty or sweet.. gosh its gonna be a lil hard.. cuz im already used to him.. too used to him.. part of me is stayin here and its hard ya knw...
i feel stupid for wastin some of the time i had to share w him.. for gettin upset at certain situations that now i feel were really idiotic.. but its normal if theres differences throughout the relationship.. just that i feel like i shouldnt of wasted precious days..
im learnin im tryin to change and i knw im gettin a lil better but i still have to grow..
to me he is the sweetest guy.. soo perfect to me.. love every inch of him.. even how he breaths heheh (he knws y) and its gonna be a lil tough but ill be patient...
im sad and i knw im cryin right now but im happy, im happy cuz i knw that i see this future and im a start preparing for it... and i see him there.. me supporting him and him supporting me..
im very grateful for having mah baby in mah life.. i knw i complain n whine alot.. but to be honest i couldnt ask for more.. i have more than what ive wanted in mah life.. god has blessed me w a great guy... i love him to death and im a miss simple things but i knw ill have em back really soon...
dedicated to the One I Love...
MY LOSER.... |
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| loopsie! |
[Jan. 29th, 2007|06:50 pm] |
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u ok?? i hope u r... lemmeknw whats goin on ok.. i love you very mucho! mi lokita brujita cabrncita heheheh muah! |
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| SonDei |
[Jan. 28th, 2007|02:52 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | dianis mountain :P | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | great day | ] |
| [ | music |
| | power puff girls song hehehe | ] |
so its sunday so sunny this day... warmth w breeze.. perfect.. couldnt ask for a better day...
im at dianis house just chillin after a long long night... but its a great day... last night was a blast...
a day like this needs to be enjoyed.. just dont knw how... but ill c what can be done...
can i say im in love? well ill do it even if im not allowed.. im in love.. i am... but i dont like the fact that it makes a person weak.. and thats what sux.. its a great sensation and its great when its a mutual thing.. but love can make a person soo weak to were u change how u are.. it feels good but it sickens u.. its a risk worth takin but sometimes u miss ur old you...
tomorrow a sader day.. see mah day is getting closer by the minute.. and it already hitting me.. i dont want to go but i do want to go its a must for me.. i need the strenght that ive lost.. i need to get stronger... see thats y i miss the strenght i lost when i fell in love.. but its an exchanger to a wonderful thing.. at least thats how i see it..
so today i wrote a bunch of bull shit hahahhaah dunno whats in mah brain since soo many headaches have blockd some of mah thoughts :P ENJOY THIS GREAT SUNDAY!!!!!
im outies! |
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| the day has come |
[Jan. 25th, 2007|06:06 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | University | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | yeey! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | sound of nature hahah toy afuera | ] |
well.. what can i say.. i can say alot... i can say nothin at all.. but as u knw i always have something to say...
in about 2 weeks im back.. yep im back in TX.. im happy cuz im a start preparing for what i want more in mah life.. but im sad... see im leaving behind the most precious person for me.. but its the risk we both have to take if we really want to start our future as one...
im excited.. i get a new job.. start school.. a new observation.. everything is gonna be so fresh to me and im soo glad.. i needed this break.. and im happy i took it.. no regrets thats for sure.. and im truly happy.. im happy because even though i go back alone.. its for our best and its gonna be a great ride...
i cant wait to see everyone... mah papasitos.. mah brujitas!.. mah crazy rock ppl.. mah fam everyone! its great to see them again.. enjoy what i can bc sooner or later im a start a new life away from everyone.. but for a better me...
so this is a happier journal.. than others.. i guess cuz im ok finally.. got passed the whole gushy crappy shit.. now im ready to face the states again.. |
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